I was coming out of our local grocery store this afternoon and a thought suddenly danced across my brain. (Hush Cat of Dreams, I do have thoughts and contrary to Urg's insistence, I also have a brain.) I am blessed. Now I don't mean the Christian connotation, ie. bless me Father for I have sinned. I mean well and truly blessed by fate, God (or Gods as you prefer), the universe, whatever, some thing out there likes me.
I have a wonderful family, who drive me nuts on occasion, but in a good way. I have great friends, some I've known for awhile (love you Cat and Blithe) and some I've met over the past few months on the internet (far too many of you to mention, but you know who you are). I've got everything I need to be happy and alot of what I want (Okay so I don't have Miguel Ferrer, but that's his loss). I considered trying a matchmaking service to find a guy, but I've realized that I'd rather be surprised by finding someone than to go looking.
Anyway this thought that I'm blessed led me to another thought, we complain about so many things, but if you look around at your life you might be surprised to find you are also blessed. If you try it and find I'm right, try a little something for me, tell somebody that they are part of what makes you blessed. I bet you'll both feel really good.
Here are thanks to a few of my blessings:
Snarky, thank you for being you. For laughing with me and allowing me to vent. For being silly and insane over online quizzes at 3am the night before your band camp. You remind me that I'm not to old to dream.
Jules, you are my sister even though we've never met face to face. You challenge and inspire me. You are the perfect blend of giggly girlfriend from high school and mature sage dispenser of wisdom. You remind me that life is always worth living.
Kaeleigh, one of my newest friends, your advice on writing is challenging me to expand my comfort zone and dare greatly. I may fail but I'm certain now that it will be a voyage of learning and one hell of a fun ride.
robandchrismom, I think Ya Ya says it all. You are as crazed as I am and battling the same sorts of issues. Through forum chats, journal entries and comments you have shown a grace and humor in adversity that I aspire to.
faithhopelove16, my SVU buddy and first fanfic friend, you have reminded me that youth isn't really wasted on the young and that I'm not too old. You encouraged me to write again and to post what I chose rather than trying to fit what the shippers wanted. You have a beautiful peaceful soul and I wish for you all that life can offer.
My darling friends Cat and Blithe (who are getting married), You have restored my faith in finding someone. Watching the two of you grow into this relationship has shown me that love does exist and that you usually find it when you're not looking. (That's it, I'm wearing blinders from now on!)
This is of course only a partial list, but I didn't want to drag this post on forever. There are many more to acknowledge for the blessings they've gifted me with and I think I'll be doing a few at a time until I've mentioned you all. The song on my media player says it all for me right now:
After all this time
The package and design
Everything in place
The look upon your face
And after all these years
Let’s drink to so few tears
The one who is and was
The one who will
The one who will and does
I'm raising my glass to a life with 'so few tears' and so many good friends and laughter. Thank you all for being you and sharing your uniqueness with me
September 3 2005, 00:20:48 UTC 6 years ago
I agree 100%
I am blessed. I have a great family, a good job (yes it might be 50+ hour weeks, but I have a job it pays well and my boss looks out for us) I have the ability to pursue the activities I love (skating, swimming, writing, baseball) and I'm healthy. It hits me often that while there are things I want that I don't have I'm really lucky that I have what I have and shouldn't complain.And you won't fail if you try. You only fail if you DON'T try. It's those who don't try (like Garret in the episode where he 'didn't write' his novel. I thought they did a wonderful job portraying that message.) Just keep writing and you'll be just fine :)
September 3 2005, 01:23:47 UTC 6 years ago
Re: I agree 100%
To be honest that episode got was one of the things that got me back to writing. I suddenly realized that I hadn't followed my bliss and was in danger of letting it slip away.As for 'failing' I mean not getting published. To me even a rejection letter is a success, it means I wrote something. Even if the publisher didn't use it for whatever reason, I can say to the world I did this, I accomplished what I sat out to do.
September 3 2005, 01:41:25 UTC 6 years ago
Re: I agree 100%
Great attitude :) I'm getting ready to submit my first thing to a publisher :) I'm so nervous and excited! But no matter what the outcome I'm thrilled that I've reached this point. It's what I worked for. (and this is my third novel. The first...well it was a learning experience...the second...has great potential (in fact I'm debating whether to start rewriting that or move on to a new idea...I will come back to it though) and now finally I feel that this third novel is publisher worthy! Keep working. We can share our misery together and collabortae on how the publishers just didn't know they were looking at the next best thing when they turn us down!!! :) Deal??September 3 2005, 03:49:38 UTC 6 years ago
Re: I agree 100%
Deal. I'll bet that you will get published, that is if your novel is any where near as engaging as your journal style. And when they've finally realized that we are the next Best thing, you and I will through one hell of a party. By the way, since you'll probably make it ahead of me, you'd better invite me to your first book signing.September 3 2005, 13:33:22 UTC 6 years ago
Sounds good to me!
It's a deal :)September 5 2005, 03:30:27 UTC 6 years ago
OMG
So the date...sooo not 'the one'. I'll tell you about it soon.September 5 2005, 03:59:56 UTC 6 years ago
Re: OMG
Can't wait to hear. Just remember looking can be fun.September 5 2005, 23:33:50 UTC 6 years ago
LOL Driving myself NUTS!
Know how I just gave you all this writing advice...well I pulled out a novel I wrote about 2 years ago. I LOVE the story however it needs a lot of work. I've come a long way in 2 years...and OH MY P.O.V I've got 4 (that I can point out right away...could have a few other random ones) in my story. I can have two (It's hilarious...all the mistakes. I should let you read it so you don't feel so discouraged.) I've got a MONUMENTAL task on my hands trying to edit this hehehe...and I really want to edit it cause I think it can be a good story and I'm not in the mood to work on my new idea at the moment...September 4 2005, 01:46:08 UTC 6 years ago
I had to find out the hard way what love really is and how to find it and recognize it.
I have a post I'm slowly working on that is going to try to paint my transformation from a young stupid idealist dreamer to someone who is haveing trouble believing he's found someone Ideal.
September 5 2005, 03:42:15 UTC 6 years ago
ya-ya sweet
honey you are too sweet. I just came across this entry. Okay,so I'm a day late and a dollar short. Okaymaybe two days late...get the gest lol. I truly count my online friends as blessings. Isn't it funny how a little tv show can make new friends that you feel like you've known forever. cheers to cj!! I truly count my kids, my family and my friends as blessings that never end.September 5 2005, 04:05:43 UTC 6 years ago
Re: ya-ya sweet
Online friends can be easier to open up to I guess. Since we don't meet face to face at first, we don't make judgments as easily. As for the weird gestalt we seem to have over CJ, I guess we are like minded people to begin with if the same show appeals to us all at the room.Being blessed with kids can feel like a mixed blessing at times though.